Oh My Ears!

If we are made to be a social people, why are there day when I just want to be alone :) ? Today is one of those days . . . one where I would like to just spend time letting my ears rest . . . lol.

Frazzled

My daughter woke up this morning with most wiry and frazzled hair I have seen in awhile. No amount of brushing would help. She had showered and towel dried last night, usually we blow dry. We had not taken the proper steps to keep her hair under control.

This hit me in the face pretty hard. 'Cause you see that's how I have been feeling frazzled, nervous, wiry, very close to the end of my rope. . . like the next thing could just send me into orbit or shut me down. And as I continually brushed her hair this morning, lamenting on why we did not take the time to dry it last night. I realized maybe, just maybe, I could have headed all of my problems off some time ago, had I taken the time to properly care for me. You see with two Christmases and two birthdays, and all the normal around here, I have not been spending much time with God. Oh sure I lift of my friends who are hurting or I thank Him for the obvious things. But just sitting down and shutting out the rest of world to spend time in His Word and listening to His voice - it's been awhile. That's what it takes to care for me, I can't care for me, only God can. If I don't give Him time, then how can I expect to be any different.

Monday

Well, it's Monday. I have just completed my second full blown Christmas of the season. I have found a new level of exhausted. So I am afraid we will work back into this blogging thing rather slowly. I find that my mind is rather numb this morning. So let's see what great knowledge I have to impart tomorrow. . .lol

Frustration

Okay, today is one of those days. One of those days when, if left unbridled the frustration that I feel could over take me and cause me shut down. Each moment is fight to stay aware of all that needs to be accomplished today. Yet, I am constantly reminded of the thing that causes such deep frustration. I try with each breath to continue on this daily ritual of this thing called life. While, everything in me cries stop, I wanna get off. I want it to change. I want life to be different. But the cries are muffled, by the speed of this thing called life.

If God exists out of time and space, if our life to Him is a mere spec in the frame of time. Does that mean He can hear my cries? Does that mean that no matter how much I am overwhelmed with frustration and no matter how fast this thing called life is rolling, he can hear me cry? God can hear me, when no else can! This is what I cling to.

Lemonade or Burritos

I have always hated the saying - When life gives you lemons, make lemonade. I hate lemonade. Why would I take something bad and make something worse out of it. I know, I know, I get all the underlying meaning and deep insightful irony. But let's make up something better, like - When life gives you beans, make burritos or something. Besides I have no control over all of it anyway. If my heart is right, God will help me decide what to do with the bucket of life, that just got dumped all over me. The problem is sometimes my heart is not right. The bucket gets dumped and I have to look through all the junk to find God. If I had only been right to start with He would be with me under all the junk.

I hit old today . . .lol

Okay - I realized when I sat down this morning at my computer to start working I was old. How did I know you say - I was eating my breakfast. . . my breakfast of fiber cookies and coffee!!!! Oh dear, it came so fast, snuck up right out of nowhere, one day it was cold pizza and hotdogs and now . . .

I have noticed many things in life seem to just sneak right up on you, or happen without conscious thought. The hardest one is God. You know that song Slow Fade from Casting Crowns. That's how it happens. One day your deep in devotions talking everyday, every-hour. Then you realize over time its been days since you opened your Bible. It's been weeks since you sat and listened to Him speak. Yet, somehow it feels like it all happened so fast.

i am back :)

Okay so somehow somewhere I fell off the planet for the months of November and December.

How does that happen? How do you let day after day pass and accomplish nothing? Well you know what I mean. . . I did keep the children feed, school going (sort of), laundry done, house clean (almost), helped the family travel cross country for a CA Thanksgiving, have an awesome quiet Christmas and . . . and . . . and . . .

But here I am the seventh day of January, just now saying oh it's a new year, what am I gonna do about it? I missed a week already . . .argh!

I don't like resolutions. 'Cause it's like setting yourself up for failure and I do that enough? But I do hope that in this coming year. . . during all the madness . . . I remember that I have a blog and I love to blog on it :)

Happy New Year! (seven days late . . .lol)