I hit old today . . .lol

Okay - I realized when I sat down this morning at my computer to start working I was old. How did I know you say - I was eating my breakfast. . . my breakfast of fiber cookies and coffee!!!! Oh dear, it came so fast, snuck up right out of nowhere, one day it was cold pizza and hotdogs and now . . .

I have noticed many things in life seem to just sneak right up on you, or happen without conscious thought. The hardest one is God. You know that song Slow Fade from Casting Crowns. That's how it happens. One day your deep in devotions talking everyday, every-hour. Then you realize over time its been days since you opened your Bible. It's been weeks since you sat and listened to Him speak. Yet, somehow it feels like it all happened so fast.

i am back :)

Okay so somehow somewhere I fell off the planet for the months of November and December.

How does that happen? How do you let day after day pass and accomplish nothing? Well you know what I mean. . . I did keep the children feed, school going (sort of), laundry done, house clean (almost), helped the family travel cross country for a CA Thanksgiving, have an awesome quiet Christmas and . . . and . . . and . . .

But here I am the seventh day of January, just now saying oh it's a new year, what am I gonna do about it? I missed a week already . . .argh!

I don't like resolutions. 'Cause it's like setting yourself up for failure and I do that enough? But I do hope that in this coming year. . . during all the madness . . . I remember that I have a blog and I love to blog on it :)

Happy New Year! (seven days late . . .lol)

Fall

I love fall weather. Cool crisps mornings. Sunny temperate days. Nothing holds you back - you can do anything, inside or out!

Margins

So, our Pastor has been doing a sermon series on Margins. How your life needs buffer areas and how these margins can increase your productivity for God. Areas like time, relationships, entertainment, and finances. So here is my conundrum . . . as a follower of Christ, a homeschool mom of three, a wife, a homemaker, a part-time Chick-fil-A employee . . . How do I find margins in my time? They say the little stuff is what crowds you out. I don't have time for the big things little alone the small things. God, Husband, Kids and boom my bucket is full to the top. How do I trim that back?

So, now I become not just a Homeschool Mom Looking for Sanity, but also searching for Margins!

restless

Sometimes my nomadic spirit over takes me. Today is one of those days. I want to get out see the world, spend money and waste time. That is not on my agenda, so I will do school, clip coupons, and accomplish all that is on today's to do list. Maybe someday :-)

real?

Today is the first day in over two weeks that I have not been overwhelm with a headache that rocks me to the core. We are talking it hurt for my hair to move. I tried to function and carry on with as many activities as I could. Tried hard not to let others know that, the very act of thinking hard enough to speak was more than my brain had capacity to process.

But my precious husband, he knew. He could look at me and see my pain. He knew when my eyes spoke different words than my mouth. He knew how I really felt.

You know that is how God see us. He knows when our soul speaks differently than our mouths and our actions. God knows how I really am.

So, today my goal is to be real - my prayer is that in being real people see God.

time AGAIN

Time - crazy word. Because all at the same time - you can have too much time and not enough time!

I look back and see how long it has been since I posted. And I think, wow, a whole month just flew by. How did I not find time in over thirty days to write just a few sentences about my ever wondering thoughts? Yet, I sit here at the computer mid-morning, as the day stretches on for what seems like an eternity and I realize that today is only Wednesday. I wonder just how much longer a week can be.

I long for the day when time has no limits, when standing in God's presence is the only thing I have to do. Until then I wish I could just live in the moment. Enjoying each moment and experiencing it to it's full potential. Yet, I find that most days, my goal is bed time. The moment when I can slip into my love's arms and turn off the world. His arm's are my favorite place on earth. Because it is there I know I am safe. It is there that I know I am protected. It is there that time stops being my enemy and becomes my friend.