Frustration

Okay, today is one of those days. One of those days when, if left unbridled the frustration that I feel could over take me and cause me shut down. Each moment is fight to stay aware of all that needs to be accomplished today. Yet, I am constantly reminded of the thing that causes such deep frustration. I try with each breath to continue on this daily ritual of this thing called life. While, everything in me cries stop, I wanna get off. I want it to change. I want life to be different. But the cries are muffled, by the speed of this thing called life.

If God exists out of time and space, if our life to Him is a mere spec in the frame of time. Does that mean He can hear my cries? Does that mean that no matter how much I am overwhelmed with frustration and no matter how fast this thing called life is rolling, he can hear me cry? God can hear me, when no else can! This is what I cling to.

Lemonade or Burritos

I have always hated the saying - When life gives you lemons, make lemonade. I hate lemonade. Why would I take something bad and make something worse out of it. I know, I know, I get all the underlying meaning and deep insightful irony. But let's make up something better, like - When life gives you beans, make burritos or something. Besides I have no control over all of it anyway. If my heart is right, God will help me decide what to do with the bucket of life, that just got dumped all over me. The problem is sometimes my heart is not right. The bucket gets dumped and I have to look through all the junk to find God. If I had only been right to start with He would be with me under all the junk.

I hit old today . . .lol

Okay - I realized when I sat down this morning at my computer to start working I was old. How did I know you say - I was eating my breakfast. . . my breakfast of fiber cookies and coffee!!!! Oh dear, it came so fast, snuck up right out of nowhere, one day it was cold pizza and hotdogs and now . . .

I have noticed many things in life seem to just sneak right up on you, or happen without conscious thought. The hardest one is God. You know that song Slow Fade from Casting Crowns. That's how it happens. One day your deep in devotions talking everyday, every-hour. Then you realize over time its been days since you opened your Bible. It's been weeks since you sat and listened to Him speak. Yet, somehow it feels like it all happened so fast.

i am back :)

Okay so somehow somewhere I fell off the planet for the months of November and December.

How does that happen? How do you let day after day pass and accomplish nothing? Well you know what I mean. . . I did keep the children feed, school going (sort of), laundry done, house clean (almost), helped the family travel cross country for a CA Thanksgiving, have an awesome quiet Christmas and . . . and . . . and . . .

But here I am the seventh day of January, just now saying oh it's a new year, what am I gonna do about it? I missed a week already . . .argh!

I don't like resolutions. 'Cause it's like setting yourself up for failure and I do that enough? But I do hope that in this coming year. . . during all the madness . . . I remember that I have a blog and I love to blog on it :)

Happy New Year! (seven days late . . .lol)

Fall

I love fall weather. Cool crisps mornings. Sunny temperate days. Nothing holds you back - you can do anything, inside or out!

Margins

So, our Pastor has been doing a sermon series on Margins. How your life needs buffer areas and how these margins can increase your productivity for God. Areas like time, relationships, entertainment, and finances. So here is my conundrum . . . as a follower of Christ, a homeschool mom of three, a wife, a homemaker, a part-time Chick-fil-A employee . . . How do I find margins in my time? They say the little stuff is what crowds you out. I don't have time for the big things little alone the small things. God, Husband, Kids and boom my bucket is full to the top. How do I trim that back?

So, now I become not just a Homeschool Mom Looking for Sanity, but also searching for Margins!

restless

Sometimes my nomadic spirit over takes me. Today is one of those days. I want to get out see the world, spend money and waste time. That is not on my agenda, so I will do school, clip coupons, and accomplish all that is on today's to do list. Maybe someday :-)