Discipline . . .agh

Discipline is a word that haunts you your whole life.  As a child it means retributions for the wrong you have committed and justice for the one wronged.  But for as much fear as the word strikes in you as a child, I am finding that as an adult the fear is more.  As an adult discipline means consistency - getting up early, eating right, EXERCISE, etc.  And while none of those things are horrible on there own - there is something about having enough discipline to make them happen that is excruciating for me.  And I find myself wishing discipline meant now what it did back them. . . I could just take the beating and it would all be over with :)