Puddle Jumping

We take so many things for granted and wallow in so many small puddles.  That when we finally fall in the big puddle we are so muddy from the little puddles we sink straight to the bottom.  My theory that I am actively striving to prove true is - jump over the little puddles and be nice and clean when you hit the big one.  That way I have a better chance of falling in, getting a little dirty, and climbing out on the other side.

You see I have already tried and proved the first theory true.  It has taken years to clean all the mud off. . .

The Dream

I wonder why we were given this adventurous spirit?

I wonder why we constantly aspire to reach a dream, that is just that a dream?

Why have the dream at all?

For without the dream, would we not be content?

Without the dream would we not have peace?

Yet the dream is there always pushing, always gnawing, always reminding . . .

A little closer to the light ?

Sometimes I think I may see the end of the tunnel, but the darkness has been here so long now, I question my knowledge of what is light.

Darkness is a lonely place, because even if you are surrounded by others you have no idea.

Tunnels are scary because there is only one way in and one way out. Your only options are to turn around and go through the terror you just experienced to get this far, or travel on ahead not knowing if it's gonna get worse or better.

I know, I know light chases away darkness and darkness can't dwell where light is . . . but sometimes the light chooses not the enter the darkness, sometimes the light knows that we can learn a whole lot more in the darkness, and yet still more times I have the light with me, I just get so scared I forget to turn it on. . .

When you can't say something nice. . .

I learned early in my blogging days.

Don't blog when you may write something you can't get out of cyberspace.

Don't blog when you may write something your great grandkids will read (while googling your name one day) and make them question your character.

This means that blogging has seasons. Because sometimes life is just too much to put in text on screen. Sometimes you don't need to allow all of humanity see your weakness, hurts, and pains. Sometimes you just need to let God do a work in your heart, that allows you see life with a new outlook. Then maybe you are ready to blog about your life.

With that said. . . God and I are still working on stuff, so blogging is just a future hope.

Oh My Ears!

If we are made to be a social people, why are there day when I just want to be alone :) ? Today is one of those days . . . one where I would like to just spend time letting my ears rest . . . lol.

Frazzled

My daughter woke up this morning with most wiry and frazzled hair I have seen in awhile. No amount of brushing would help. She had showered and towel dried last night, usually we blow dry. We had not taken the proper steps to keep her hair under control.

This hit me in the face pretty hard. 'Cause you see that's how I have been feeling frazzled, nervous, wiry, very close to the end of my rope. . . like the next thing could just send me into orbit or shut me down. And as I continually brushed her hair this morning, lamenting on why we did not take the time to dry it last night. I realized maybe, just maybe, I could have headed all of my problems off some time ago, had I taken the time to properly care for me. You see with two Christmases and two birthdays, and all the normal around here, I have not been spending much time with God. Oh sure I lift of my friends who are hurting or I thank Him for the obvious things. But just sitting down and shutting out the rest of world to spend time in His Word and listening to His voice - it's been awhile. That's what it takes to care for me, I can't care for me, only God can. If I don't give Him time, then how can I expect to be any different.

Monday

Well, it's Monday. I have just completed my second full blown Christmas of the season. I have found a new level of exhausted. So I am afraid we will work back into this blogging thing rather slowly. I find that my mind is rather numb this morning. So let's see what great knowledge I have to impart tomorrow. . .lol